Interview with Casey Deidrick | My Story, My Truth

We, all human beings are constantly evolving into more. Regardless of how we label the events happening in our life, there is always a beneficial outcome when we are willing to see it. There are many ways and roads to experience the life we consider is best for us. Our belief system affects how we allow seeing our limitless possibilities, hence by embracing those beliefs that support our desires, we will be much closer to see them manifest.

But how do we change our patterns of thoughts?

There are many practices available, but at the bases of it, it’s literally to start convincing and seeing yourself in the direction of what you want to become. Desires will never cease, it’s our natural creative expression to expand, for that, we always aim for more. 

Actor Casey Deidrick, who can be currently seen as Max on the new CW series In The Dark says: “I’d write little notes to myself every day and post them on my wall, I called it the “Positivity Wall.” And most of the notes were thanking the universe for something I didn’t have yet. (…) For how many times I’ve wanted to quit acting, I was too stubborn to do it. I’d cry myself to sleep some nights then I’d wake up and say, “f#%k that” and go to another audition.”

In this intimate and heartful interview, you will be inspired by Casey’s story. His words will resonate with you as you will sense their truth. 


  • Please introduce yourself briefly. Who, in your own words, is Casey Deidrick?

I’ve always had a hard time answering this question because a lot of what I do is embodying other characters. I’m still trying to figure out who Casey is. I’ve always been a very emotional person and through acting, I’ve learned to control it. I never thought of acting as a job but a way for me to process and cope with my Bipolar Disorder and childhood traumas. I’m continuing on this journey of growth and learning more and more about myself each day.

  • What memories do you have of how you felt when you and your friend did your first audition in high school for the school’s production of Carousel with a rock song?

I don’t think I was thinking. Honestly, I think I blacked out. I was terrified, but my best friend at the time and I decided to sing a song from one of our favorite bands, Brand New. We both ended up getting parts in the play but I decided not to do it because I was so scared of being in front of a live audience.

  • Did you deliberately make the decision to go into acting at the age of 15 when you saw The Lord of the Rings for the first time? If so, what sparked the impulse that inspired you to do so?

I think to see The Lord of the Rings for the first time implanted the thoughts in my head. It wasn’t until I was 19 and about to join the Marine Corps. when my mom finally expressed her concerns and encouraged me to try acting.

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Entertainment Industry

  • At the age of 19, you moved to LA pursuing your acting career. Since then you have appeared and worked in several entertainment projects. How have your beliefs influenced your path starting with having a desire to manifesting it into your physical reality?

I have always been extremely stubborn when it comes to working ethics. And I think I was taught that from skateboarding as a kid. I’d write little notes to myself every day and post them on my wall, I called it the “Positivity Wall.” And most of the notes were thanking the universe for something I didn’t have yet. It wasn’t long until my entire wall was covered in notes. For how many times I’ve wanted to quit acting, I was too stubborn to do it. I’d cry myself to sleep some nights then I’d wake up and say, “f#%k that” and go to another audition. This industry is soul crushing and I have so much respect for actors getting told no every day and getting so close to roles that they’re perfect for only to have the role go to a bigger name or because of politics. I just keep going, just keep pushing. It’s my job to make them remember me in every room I go into, even if I don’t get the job, I know at the end of the day that I worked hard and that dreams need time to breathe and manifest.

  • Have you been in many auditions while you were combining your job as a waiter and acting classes? If so, regardless if you were cast for the role or not, in what way do you feel auditioning has contributed to your growth as an actor?

I have been blessed enough to not have had a real job in 10 years. I was serving and waiting tables at a couple of different restaurants until I landed the role on the Soap Opera. Of course, I’ve had odd jobs in between roles but nothing ever long term. To be honest, the audition process isn’t a fun experience for me, you get judged the second you walk in the room and most of the time they already know if you’re the guy or not within the first couple lines from the scene. But the thousands of “No’s” I was told helped build resilience. It humbled me. It made me want it that much more. It forced me to not give a fuck about what anyone else thought about me. It challenged me to be still and to listen in my acting.


  • Max is the character you portray on the new CW series In The Dark, which premiered on April 4, 2019. What was your process of becoming Max, how did you connect with him?

I connect with Max in so many different ways. He’s the type of person that doesn’t judge anyone for who they are and I love that about him. The way he was smitten and intrigued by Murphy the first time they met really made me think about the last 10 years of my life. I was in romantic relationships all throughout my 20’s without really getting to know the person first. And it’s just interesting to see Max doing the same because there is no denying the attraction both characters have for each other. I will say Max taught me so much about relationships and that there are other forms of communication besides anger in dealing with arguments. He taught me to respond from places of love and that in itself is one of the greatest gifts.

  • In The Dark seems to be a very appropriate title since the series is about a young blind woman, Murphy, who is trying to solve her friend’s Tyson murder. Max partners up with her to help her solve the crime. Why does Max decide to get involved in helping Murphy?

I think In The Dark is an appropriate title for not only Murphy but for every character on this series. Everyone is In the Dark about something. Ultimately, I think Max truly cares for Murphy and in doing so, he starts to crack her guarded vulnerability. I think Max may be one of the first guys in her life that challenge her and he doesn’t judge her for being visually impaired. Little by little the walls start to come down and we see that there is so much love these two characters have for each other.

  • In The Dark is a drama-comedy. What’s your favorite funny moment while filming the series?

Max breaking his penis was one of the funniest weeks on set for a lot of people. Trying to have serious conversations in scenes and then quickly reminding yourself that your penis is broken really brings a whole new dimension to the scene.

  • Why do you think the audience will love watching In The Dark?

I think people are going to love In the Dark because it’s not your typical CW show. There is so much texture and arc to these characters and it’s just a very real and raw show. The fact that the writers can bring some humor to something very serious is intriguing to me. I think there’s something for everyone in this series whether you like comedy or drama or crime shows, there are so many relatable qualities each character has. I really think this show creates a lot of awareness around alcoholism, depression, and relationships and I hope the show sparks conversations around these topics at home.

  • Do you have any other exciting projects you are currently working on?

I am currently focusing mainly on promoting In The Dark. I just shot a music video with one of my favorite directors, Robby Starbuck that will be out in a couple of months. That being said, I’m just trying to savor each moment and enjoy this.

Photography by Marc Cartwright

Good Soul   

  • Are you involved in any charity organization or humanitarian cause you would like to mention?

There’s a few I’m involved with right now. I’ve been working with The Lost Angels Children’s Project. I’ve been trying to find time to work with 4Ocean which is an incredible organization that’s helping save our planet and rid the oceans of our global plastic issue. And there’s The Thirst Project which is building water wells so that villages in Africa have access to fresh and clean water. These charities have my attention right now and I will continue to support them.


  • Is there a certain method you follow when you want to reconnect with yourself?

I think one of the most effective ways of reconnecting with yourself is through meditation. To sit alone in your thoughts and connect with your breathing is one of the easiest ways to get myself in the present moment. I also love taking my dog on hikes or long walks and I’ll just listen to my favorite music. My dog teaches me a lot about patience and I’m still learning so much from him.

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  • The spirit of The Hedonist Magazine is The Essence of a Joyful Living. How does Joy during the creative process affect your own experience and in consequence the final manifestation of your actions?

I think how I feel on the inside is a clear indication of what I’m manifesting. If I have a lot of anxiety around something or I feel upset about something, it means I need to change the frequency. Change my thoughts. Or go take a walk somewhere. I’m not interested in creating anything that doesn’t come from a place of love. And having a mental illness can really get in the way of feeling joyous, so it’s a constant battle for me.

  • When you hear: “You can be, do and have anything you want,” words from the Abraham-Hicks teachings, what is your take on such a statement?

I think being in the career that I’ve chosen this statement is hard for me to believe because there’s just so much that goes into the casting process that’s out of my control. But I do think having a blueprint and a clear vision of what it is you actually want, the universe will somehow find a way of presenting it to you. Whether it’s exactly what you wanted or something similar, I think the power of imagination is a wonderful tool in getting you closer to what you want.
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